Addressing the elephant in the room is never easy

An elephant never forgets

But somehow I forgot me

Wasted potential invested in repetitive negative mental constraints

Hiding behind people’s expectations and justifying reasons formed by voices

With a big heart comes big ears

So my heart hears loud when they say I will never make it

I can’t be loved with all the wrinkles and scars

In a world of different I fit in with the not so good enough

And my world is not black or white, I live in the gray

You can sing but no one would buy your album

You’re good looking but could never be a supermodel

And your qualification is but a decoration

Who cares where you are going when its easier to shackle you to the past

Falling into traps and allowing poachers to graze at my surface

Bullets aimed at my ego,

Chipping away at my esteem

Big exterior, empty shell

Look how the elephant fell

Anti-poaching laws exist in the bible, carrying messages of hope but even then there were near human sacrifices

So maybe my dreams are the price I pay

But an elephant never forgets

and somehow I forget me yet I struggle to forget who I said I’d be

My dreams form wounds that won’t heal and itch at my subconscious

I’m a tortured soul and don’t know how long I have left to live

So I will live like each day is my last

With nothing mattering more than the fact that I chased a dream I could never forget

 

Jade Novelist ©️ 2017
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