It started small,
with letters written by a middle man
Sometimes a he, other times a she
They would tell me how to love you
Three times a day,
other times I had to have you only after meals
Your taste would fill my lips and I would feel safe
Working your way through my system
Calming my nerves, you made me better
Doctors were right,
though it pains me,
you were necessary for my existence
Necessary became essential and obsession formed
You had to be everywhere I went and I didn’t care who saw us together
I needed you to chase the voices away
I needed you to make bad days okay
With you, I learnt to live on the edge because the idea of overdose became exciting
Loving you became easier with time
Friends and family agreed they liked me better after you entered my life
and I didn’t feel so alone when I had to stand in front of crowds
or when I had to take a test
They say the best things in life are free
But I find love monthly in a bottle
Jade Novelist ©️ 2017