I’m afraid of everything but mostly terrified of having you
They label it genetics, so I am wired this way
But I hope the chaos I embody never brings disorder to your life
Yet if you inherit the burden of my sins, then understand it was never intentional
All I ever wanted was to love someone whose face mirrored mine
And if it is your destiny, then may you wear the mantle of “broken” in your later days after you’ve lived a full life
Have no regrets, love freely knowing the mind isn’t in charge of that function
Speak your truth, even if the words get jumbled up inside, eventually they come out right
Please never tire of your own voice because I won’t always be around to stand up for you
But for as long as I am, don’t worry about being misunderstood
You won’t have to do it alone like I did
You won’t be young, black and struggling
We won’t down scale it to “attention seeking”
or look for answers from ancestors or blame it on witches
You are just special
You are different
You are born from a chaotic mind
How could you ever be ordinary?
Wow! What a lovely, loving poem of hope in the midst of uncertainty. I pray you are blessed with new life as you bring new life into the world.
Amen. Thank you so much for the kind words and for taking the time to read the poem.