We said goodbye, a decade agoand five months prior we were forced to say hello under unfortunate circumstances
You left before I knew who I wanted to be
and because of the things you did to her,
I never thought putting you under would hurt like this
but I suppose a father will always have an impact on his kids
Every hurt that I thought I had gotten past resurfaced
Cold and grey, in the coffin you lay
the first time, in a long time
we came face to face
We still have a connection
Chest pains when you cross my mind,
dreams of what could have been had you never walked out
and a new side of the family I never knew existed
but truth is, none of them are you
I thought the pain would only last the duration of that weekend
but I suppose that’s why burials are for the living
So we can carry on mourning long after you’re gone
Seconds turning into minutes into hours becoming days
but I’m still stuck in a moment
So while everyone moves on, I’m struggling to let go
I guess since you were never around, I’m still your little girl
You never taught me how to dealing with a man leaving my life
So I’m not healing quick enough
