For so long doubt had engulfed the greater part of my being,
owing to the fact that I looked for love in the wrong placesFailing to note that love was a two way thing,
so like many I had a type, a standard and a definition
Like many, I jumped in head first but somehow always landed on my fragile heart because I failed to consider that maybe “love”, as a two way thing requires for my type to also love me
So after continuous attempts at being Mr Right to Mrs Wrong, my heart broke and fell.
I had lost faith in faith, no hope to hope for and I hated love.
Most of all I hated me for adding information another failure onto my list.
As I drew closer to the edge, on the brink of insanity you blew down and shielded me with your wings
You were unique and so you showed me a different form of something I thought I knew so well
Ngenxa yothando lwakho
, ngiyesaba ukulahlekelwa nguwe
Ulethe ukuthula nenjabulo empilweni yami
ngamukele ukuba injabulo ayidalelwanga mina.
Ngenxa yobuhlungu ebengibhekene nabo.
I felt it as the light of your soul reflected through your eyes and began to chip away at the darkness that corrupted my heart
I looked at you, as you looked at me
And without words your intentions were clear
You weren’t here to fix me, you weren’t here to change me.
You just wanted what was left of the broken pieces
You wished to keep them, so no one could cause harm again.
You took my heart and replaced it with yours, and you guard the broken shards as if they were your own and all you asked for was a chance
You were willing to love when you knew there was no love left in me
No love in my vocabulary or in the whisper of my prayers
I tried to chase you away
I pushed, I shoved, I lied, I did everything
Everything except run
I guess secretly, my soul knew you were coming
As I said you were different, I suppose I knew it was you
You’re drawn to my fears
The mess draped in gold
The very hurt i try so hard to mask
The way you came charging at me, intentions spread across a billboard
But most importantly I understand why I love you
I love you because you are a reflection of everything I’m not
And so you bring out the best in me
You. A reflection of pain and love lost in failed attempts
A reflection of sorrow bathed in strength to still love with bleeding hearts…
You. The piece to complete me
Jade Novelist © 2017